"We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for."
~ Dead Poet’s Society
~ Dead Poet’s Society
earth angel
you throw your thoughts
across the open sea
and you dont even care
you talked to the stars
but theyre not the only one
who witness your cries
you said you dont know me
but i guess you're right
i am just the moon who overheard
your chants to the gods
the one who sees you dance in my light
to offer the spirits
wishing for the man you love
to come back
June 10, 2011
the end
staring at your shadow
on the blue tiled floor
i told myself i won't miss you
but i remembered
what it feels like
to be with you
to talk to you
to share laughs with you
am I missing you already?
should i tell you
now that you're leaving?
what could I really say?
is it too late?
in my heart I know
you need me say this
but it is just a word
it doesnt mean anything
but it may turn
our worlds upside down.
by then, will you be ready?
am i even worth it?
you deserve much more
better than me
should i show you?
show you how you made me feel?
how happy I am just to stare at you
or just to hear your silly jokes?
is it really ok to yield with you?
would it be OK to be happy?
Will you be happy?
would you even tell me if you will?
I was there beside you
when you said goodbye
I was standing... speechless again
just wearing the disguise... again.
told myself i am not worth it
you deserve good things
somehow, my walls are thinning
i am getting weaker
as you turned away
maybe i can say I need you now
grab your hands
and then hold you against chest
Maybe i will show you how i want you
how I was wanting to touch your skin
that i was wishing everyday
and so you will know how much
i am wanting this to flourish
maybe i want to do it now
will you kiss me?
and tell me its ok?
But,
maybe this is what we need.
letting things just the way it is
can you really say that I was weak?
Sunday, June 05, 2011
Red Umbrella
underneath my red umbrella
the world of you and I exist
your smile, my sun.
your voice, my air.
your silence, my water.
It rained hearts that day.
flooded my sad soul
drowning me with
happiness
and excitement
even with that simmering heat,
that you resented so much,
I rejoiced.
and how the umbrella’s no aid,
you said,
i just replied you with a smile
cause you know it cant be avoided
it was high noon,
in the middle of the summer.
finding myself laughing
on my silliness over you,
as I float
walking side by side with you,
on that long dreadful sidewalk
that looks like short road
of puffy clouds,
and those tall buildings
that look like willow trees.
awkwardly, consciously.
I was trying to walk straight
as normal as I could
with the busy traffic of the metro
haven’t you noticed?
underneath my red umbrella
you and I exist.
Friday, June 3 2011
the world of you and I exist
your smile, my sun.
your voice, my air.
your silence, my water.
It rained hearts that day.
flooded my sad soul
drowning me with
happiness
and excitement
even with that simmering heat,
that you resented so much,
I rejoiced.
and how the umbrella’s no aid,
you said,
i just replied you with a smile
cause you know it cant be avoided
it was high noon,
in the middle of the summer.
finding myself laughing
on my silliness over you,
as I float
walking side by side with you,
on that long dreadful sidewalk
that looks like short road
of puffy clouds,
and those tall buildings
that look like willow trees.
awkwardly, consciously.
I was trying to walk straight
as normal as I could
with the busy traffic of the metro
haven’t you noticed?
underneath my red umbrella
you and I exist.
Friday, June 3 2011
My Imaginary Love
My heart is breaking every time
I see you frown
But, still, I am here...
Loving the sadness that you've created.
I am here who expects nothing
but the smile on your face to appear.
This is my beautiful secret...
Your smile
teasing my heart
as I am trying to contain the excitement
every time that you do.
I will risk it all to stay here...
staring.
waiting.
pretending.
I am here, just waiting for that beautiful secret.
Whenever I look into your dreamy eyes,
I feel that I am floating in a dark space
Taking pleasure on your imaginary love
Hugging me with your imaginary arms
In my daydream world
You're holding me to keep my head from spinning
Feeling your body against mine
You made me calm.
You don't know this
But I am owning my beautiful secret
Come love...
I'll take you far away from here
from this place called reality.
I want to love you fearlessly
Where you would smile for me...
Where you would sing for me.
Come sate me...
let's escape to the dimension that I will create
a temporary dimension
Where you love me endlessly
Where you would say my name lovingly
Can you feel that I am losing it, love?
Can't help it...
I just let it flow into my veins.
The toxic of betrayal and lust
I am loving how it
throbs under my skin.
crawling painfully into my life
Filling me up
I am dying here.
Barely breathing.
Waiting for my beautiful secret to show again
My lifeline, My drug
I'll risk it all to stay high.
It will all get better in time
I hope it will.
But somehow, my mind
felt that you're unreal
and you would disappear
like the morning
Eyes open now
My mind still wanders...
About you
and my beautiful secret
I Can't help it...
I am here, tears fall silently
Enthralled by the very vibration that still lingers
And you are there
Unaware of what magic you've created for me
Feeling alone now
keeping my beautiful secret
as long as I could
I am just here...
Holding it against my chest
And your there
Unaware of the secret I have from you
Till we meet again
No matter how long it takes
I will be here in the corner
Waiting.
January 08, 2011
I see you frown
But, still, I am here...
Loving the sadness that you've created.
I am here who expects nothing
but the smile on your face to appear.
This is my beautiful secret...
Your smile
teasing my heart
as I am trying to contain the excitement
every time that you do.
I will risk it all to stay here...
staring.
waiting.
pretending.
I am here, just waiting for that beautiful secret.
Whenever I look into your dreamy eyes,
I feel that I am floating in a dark space
Taking pleasure on your imaginary love
Hugging me with your imaginary arms
In my daydream world
You're holding me to keep my head from spinning
Feeling your body against mine
You made me calm.
You don't know this
But I am owning my beautiful secret
Come love...
I'll take you far away from here
from this place called reality.
I want to love you fearlessly
Where you would smile for me...
Where you would sing for me.
Come sate me...
let's escape to the dimension that I will create
a temporary dimension
Where you love me endlessly
Where you would say my name lovingly
Can you feel that I am losing it, love?
Can't help it...
I just let it flow into my veins.
The toxic of betrayal and lust
I am loving how it
throbs under my skin.
crawling painfully into my life
Filling me up
I am dying here.
Barely breathing.
Waiting for my beautiful secret to show again
My lifeline, My drug
I'll risk it all to stay high.
It will all get better in time
I hope it will.
But somehow, my mind
felt that you're unreal
and you would disappear
like the morning
Eyes open now
My mind still wanders...
About you
and my beautiful secret
I Can't help it...
I am here, tears fall silently
Enthralled by the very vibration that still lingers
And you are there
Unaware of what magic you've created for me
Feeling alone now
keeping my beautiful secret
as long as I could
I am just here...
Holding it against my chest
And your there
Unaware of the secret I have from you
Till we meet again
No matter how long it takes
I will be here in the corner
Waiting.
January 08, 2011
Night Swim Love
On a night like this
I can fall in love
Sitting on the tan-colored beach
in blissful daze
Moon eerily lit the clouds,
creating the ghostly landscape
and for the waves to show their glittery jewels
luring me in…
the cold sea-breeze
nudging my soul to fly
and the sound of the waves
seducing me
slipping now into the dark water
I got myself hypnotized
dipping slowly now on its cold embrace
I am with the sea.
I want to feel its milky,
magical sensation again
I am in-love
and it loves me back
overwhelmed by its mystical power
im now going insane
lost into it’s deep… Im happy
moving down
and touching its murky floor
I am losing my breath
staring at the glittery moon
from the deep
i am inlove again
Am I mad?
just letting the current
pushed me into its depth - unafraid?
just feeling the strangeness of it
not worrying of getting drowned?
just wanting to know the mystery
in the darkness of the sea?
In one gliding motion-
i am swimming into its vastness
into its depth
into its old, endless dream
i am grateful to be a part of it.
I turned and swam upwards
gasping for air, staying alive.
hanging on whats left on my soul
screaming ecstasy,
for I have survived
January 15, 2011
I can fall in love
Sitting on the tan-colored beach
in blissful daze
Moon eerily lit the clouds,
creating the ghostly landscape
and for the waves to show their glittery jewels
luring me in…
the cold sea-breeze
nudging my soul to fly
and the sound of the waves
seducing me
slipping now into the dark water
I got myself hypnotized
dipping slowly now on its cold embrace
I am with the sea.
I want to feel its milky,
magical sensation again
I am in-love
and it loves me back
overwhelmed by its mystical power
im now going insane
lost into it’s deep… Im happy
moving down
and touching its murky floor
I am losing my breath
staring at the glittery moon
from the deep
i am inlove again
Am I mad?
just letting the current
pushed me into its depth - unafraid?
just feeling the strangeness of it
not worrying of getting drowned?
just wanting to know the mystery
in the darkness of the sea?
In one gliding motion-
i am swimming into its vastness
into its depth
into its old, endless dream
i am grateful to be a part of it.
I turned and swam upwards
gasping for air, staying alive.
hanging on whats left on my soul
screaming ecstasy,
for I have survived
January 15, 2011
Dreaming Merman
Walking on a winding trail to nowhere
Sun shining, blinded by its rays
I sighed
My hand shading my eyes
as I looked further…
I released another sigh
Then a beautiful voice reached my ears,
His song reached my heart.
I stopped… Wondering… Looking…
Following the rhythm that dances in the wind
Seducingly… drawing me- to him
A merman, half man, half fish
Facing the ocean, singing, with his eyes closed
Felt his kindness in his song
Tears glistened on the side of his face,
Crying?
Felt his sadness in his voice
I cried…Tried to reached out to comfort
But… he’s gone
Gone into the depths of the sea.
His world.
November 20, 2009
Sun shining, blinded by its rays
I sighed
My hand shading my eyes
as I looked further…
I released another sigh
Then a beautiful voice reached my ears,
His song reached my heart.
I stopped… Wondering… Looking…
Following the rhythm that dances in the wind
Seducingly… drawing me- to him
A merman, half man, half fish
Facing the ocean, singing, with his eyes closed
Felt his kindness in his song
Tears glistened on the side of his face,
Crying?
Felt his sadness in his voice
I cried…Tried to reached out to comfort
But… he’s gone
Gone into the depths of the sea.
His world.
November 20, 2009
Queen Of Pain
Pain drums my heart now…
Sending echoes of screams
and ripples- of darkness to my soul
Like a distant song that comes to me in my dreams— or
by that very beat and rhythm of the voodoo drums
played by the dark kings of the fire
Summoning Pain to me…
The Queen of Pain crazily dance around my head
in my chest…
in my heart.
- dancing around the bonfire of my hate and disgust.
Throbbing so quickly now
I am defenseless.
Surrendering to the overwhelming pain
from the taste of the poison that I have created.
It doesn’t make sense anymore throwing punches to the air
Nothing… wasting… dying…
I am shaking now- lifelessly on the ground
I am trembling now- crying helplessly
I am screaming now- silently… waiting.
The Queen of Pain deceives me again.
lulled me to sleep.
December 11, 2009
Sending echoes of screams
and ripples- of darkness to my soul
Like a distant song that comes to me in my dreams— or
by that very beat and rhythm of the voodoo drums
played by the dark kings of the fire
Summoning Pain to me…
The Queen of Pain crazily dance around my head
in my chest…
in my heart.
- dancing around the bonfire of my hate and disgust.
Throbbing so quickly now
I am defenseless.
Surrendering to the overwhelming pain
from the taste of the poison that I have created.
It doesn’t make sense anymore throwing punches to the air
Nothing… wasting… dying…
I am shaking now- lifelessly on the ground
I am trembling now- crying helplessly
I am screaming now- silently… waiting.
The Queen of Pain deceives me again.
lulled me to sleep.
December 11, 2009
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A poet is born, not made. –Fuller
“Out of the quarrel with others, we make rhetoric; out of the quarrel with ourselves poetry.”-W. B. Yeats
“I’ve written some poetry I don’t understand myself.” -Carl Sandburg
"For the true poet a metaphor is not a figure of speech, but a vicarious image which actually hovers before him in place of a concept. To him a charcater is not an aggregate composed of a number of particular traits, but an organic person pressing himself upon his attention. [...] We talk so abstractly about poetry, because we are all bad poets."
- Friedrich Nietzsche, The Birth of Tragedy
Do not do what someone else could do as well as you. Do not say, do not write what someone else could say, could write as well as you. Care for nothing in yourself but what you feel exists nowhere else. And, out of yourself create, impatiently or patiently, the most irreplaceable of beings. -Andre Gide
